Monday, March 12, 2007

crazy monday!

A lot of things happened today in class..
What made me really sad was that somebody spilled my chocolate ganache..
I was only away from the table like for 10 seconds and I saw nadine squat down under the table..
and all of a sudden she called out my name
"YANAA Your chocolatte spilled and it got to my bag."
Then, I came to my table asking her..."what did you do?"
She was really mad at me telling: " I didnt spill it!! Now your chocolate ganache spilled onto my bag and I have to clean it!! Get me a wet rag, I will wipe this for you"
At first I thought, oh how nice for her to clean that for me..but then I was thinking again..
maybe she is quilty thats why she cleaned it. Then later, she called out my name again
"YANAA Clean the chocolate!!Help me to clean it."
Cant she see I was cleaning the front table and sink? It was so messed up and my mind was all confused. Thinking about the ganache made me even more crazy. Then I replied her with
"I didnt spill it.Why should I clean it??"
Then, it became an argument..She yelled at me..and scolded me with the F word..and she started making a fuss about it..telling and shouting to everybody of how the chocolate dirtied her bag..
In my mind I was like thinking...
Your bag is dirty..you can still clean it at home..what about my ganache! I had a hard time chopping the chocolate to 63 oz and taking the time to do it for my group...and now it's GONE!how can she dare say her bag is dirty...If only I can say these in front of her..blame me for having no guts..
A while later, she yelled at me again and scolded me with the F word..What made me frustrated was She made a fuss about the chocolate spilled and acted as if she is the innocent one..
I was at the front table, couldnt take it anymore and I cried running outside and I was seen by chef.
When I came back, Chef called me outside..and i told him everything about nadine..chef told me to stayback and talk to chef's tim..when class dismissed, there were left only with me, denieza, and ignacia.
We chat a little while about the situation earlier and Nadine came in...looking angry and shouted to chef
"Why is it always me who get the blame and the others get off easily??" [ thats really rude of her]
I felt sorry for chef jake..He cant say anything..all he could say is.." that you might want to talk to the office." Then Candice came in..She too has a problem with nadine..
So the four of us..Ignacia, candice, Den and me together with chef went to the chef's office to look for chef's tim..After waiting for a while, cehf's tim brought us to computer lab to have a private talk together with chef jake. We talked about today's situation..of how she always use vulgarity in every sentence she say and scold people with the F word..chef tim said he is going to take action which is GOOD!
Later in the end, we ended up having funny conversations with the two chef's.
What a day to start with by letting people scolded me with all the F words. Maybe it was partly my fault too..I should not have straight away blaming her "What did you do?"..It was just a reflection in my mind and wasnt on purpose of blaming her. But thinking of it again..there was no one else on my table except for her..and i just left the table for like 10 scnds and saw her squat down touching things here and there at table below. Too bad, I didnt see her spilling it. If she did it, and she admit it, then I will be okay.somehow i have this strong feeling she was really quilty today by how she scolded chef jake after class.Dont tell me the bowl of ganache spilled by itself because of the wind?? thats so unreal because the bowl is heavy.somebody must have pushed it. I really suspected her because christie told me she heard nadine saying" I wish it was an accident"
I really dont wish making another ganache..thinking of chopping the chocolate is crazy. All the way home, I felt really sorry for chef jake for getting all the scoldings from nadine today because of me and still able to try to shield and protect me from her..After the meeting he even cheered me up saying
"be happy and have fun at home." SORRY SORRY SORRY..I know it wont helps.
I shouldnt have point blames on Nadine,too. Maybe she really didnt do it. maybe the wind that did all this..or maybe the Ghost..hehehe. Or i know what...
Maybe I should start sleeping so that God gives me a nice dream of who the culprit was..hehe.

THATS IT for TODAY. I hope tomorrow will be a better day!
zzzzzzzzzzzzz
Yanastarted this journey at8:31 PM